Houston, We’ve got a problem…

To my readers, mea culpa for my e-absence. Over the last few weeks I received a new chastity device and then sadly had to send it back for resizing. Its a trap that I keep falling into. I imagine myself as a man with an average sized penis (its not average) but when I order accordingly, the devices are always too small. For this reason, I work with amazing dealers and craftsmen when ordering devices. You pay a little more, but in the end, after some adjustments, you get device that fits. So, todays special thank you goes out toe Mature Metal for the resizing they did for me.

During my time off from chastity, something happened at work that kind of spooked me. I was paged to go to the MRI department “stat”. I had to ask someone where that was because in five years at my hospital, I have never been in the MRI room. If you have ever had an MRI, you might know that metal is absolutely forbidden anywhere near that machine. The reason is that the machine is basically a humongous magnet and all metal will be drawn right to it. I got to the department, emptied my pockets, took off my badge and for good measure took off my stethoscope and glasses. The good news is that the reason I was paged was ridiculous (no cause for alarm, someone over-reacted) and I was NOT locked in chastity that day!

I got to thinking about the benefits and detriments to chastity. I love how I feel emotionally after ten days of cum denial. I love the way the only orgasm at the end of 15 days just blows my mind. I love how well my relationship with my kh blooms and blossoms while he keeps me locked. But, like everyone else I hate certain things about chastity.

You have probably read about my endless underwear search to accommodate my chastity. I hate that! I hate the pain that poorly made devices can cause. I hate the lube issue and I hate having to hide what I am doing.

The whole MRI issue brought about a new worry for me and my KH. I DO carry an emergency key and it seems like I have just found out why I do that! The problem is that even if I were to take the device off in such an emergency, where the hell would I put it?! I can’t leave it on reception desk with my keys, thats for sure!

I will be posting a review of the jailbird that I am wearing tonight, but thats going to have to wait a few days. There are a number of pass/fail tests that my devices go through. The issue of “can I sleep through the night in this thing” is right up there towards the top of the importance list. If I sleep through the night, you will see some generous reviews here tomorrow.

For now, I welcome you back to my blog and thank you again for reading. I hope you have a great night.

Here’s to new beginnings

Im back, and this time I am locked in my new jailbird by mature metal.

I got home from work yesterday only to find my kh waiting for me. Since this almost never happens, I knew something was up. He welcomed me home and presented me with a priority mail box from Texas. I knew what was in the box, but I didn’t think my time off was going to end for another week. In the box was the jailbird we ordered only 17 days earlier. My freedom ended now.

I was happy but not entirely enthusiastic at the beginning and he noticed. He had me strip and on the jailbird went. The first thing I noticed was how secure the fit was. We had ordered to sizing rings and followed the directions. The end result is a device that is so fitted to me that pullout is never going to happen.

I went about showering and my usual activities and then it was time for bed. Nighttime is one of two particular times where chastity roars its horrid head and drives me crazy (the other is getting into and out of the car). I don’t know what I was thinking but I never lubricated before bed. In fact, I only lubricated 24 hours later. I woke up twice in pain (skin pulls). Lesson to those coming over to steel devices.. YOU NEED TO USE LUBE!

On the second area (the car), the device is perfect! No pain and no pulling.

On the cleanliness front, the device is EVERYTHING I had been looking for! Soap, water and you are done! No squeeze bottles, no q-tips, no trapped moisture. I am VERY pleased with this angle.

Lastly, we come to build quality (this was an investment after all). The cage build is A++, the ring build gets a solid B-. I am taking off a significant amount because my custom handmade device had a ring that had a very sharp point on it. There is no acceptable reason that this should have ever left the workbench at mature metal. I took some sandpaper to it and the problem is gone, the fact is that it was shipped that way. The quality control is lacking and that should never have happened.

After a day of wearing it with no lube (well, no good lube, I figured this out at work and hospital grade surge-lube is kind of horrible), I am now locked and lubed (Pjur). The skin on my scrotum is a bit sore but not broken. I hope the lube and some rest will get me back to tender free status asap. Lets hope tonights rest is uninterrupted because of chastity.

Thanks for reading! I hope your thanksgiving plans are coming along nicely!

We are on a break!

I have been unlocked for a few weeks in anticipation of my new device being delivered. The debauchery has been astounding. I’ll leave you to your imagination on what has transpired, but suffice it to say that when the jailbird gets here, my body will welcome the rest at least for a little while! LOL.

I have started to experience the other side of the testosterone surge (aka testosterone shortage). Now that I have some freedoms, I find that at times of rest, I am more anxious and more easily agitated than during similar times while I had  been in chastity. My pulse is higher, I am more tired at the end of the day and I have been grouchy too. I have been quite a handful LOL.

The good news is that we know what the antidote is and its being constructed now.

Thanks for reading and following these posts. Once the new device arrives, I’ll update and pickup where I left off.

 

 

Measure twice, cut once

Last night I got unlocked and it looks like that will be the 2nd to last time I am unlocked from my birdlocked device. Once we were through, my KH measured me for my jailbird. The whole situation was kind of bizarre for me as my kh has always been the master of the keys, not the master of the chastity devices. Until last night, I was the one to put on or take off my device once he unlocked it. Getting back to last night, he took out the sizing rings and went to pushing, pulling, measuring and rechecking all on his own. In the end, he chose a base ring and a cage diameter that seem ok to me. The biggest surprise for me was in measuring. I had initially taken a measurement of my flaccid penis and was intent on using that when it came time to order. Being 6’5″ tall, I guess the view can be skewed. His measurement was a full half inch LESS than mine (the shower is also apparently a grower!). To make it even more interesting to me, he ordered the cage another 1/4″ shorter than that! I asked why and he produced the paperwork that comes with the sizing rings. Right there on the paper, it says to take off another 1/4″. Never being one not to question everything, I called Mature Metal today and asked why the paper said to take off 1/4″ and the website said nothing about it.

The person that answered the phone was a woman. (boom, my head exploded)

I’ll give you a minute to go over that fact in your mind.

I dont assume that the whole world is gay like me. I don’t assume that everyone into chastity is a gay man, and I certainly don’t assume that everyone into kink/bsdm is gay. Its just a little different to me to think that a woman would be the one answering the questions I had about a chastity device.

It gets weirder…

When I asked my question, she gave me a respectful answer along the lines of ‘most men overestimate the size of their flaccid penises”, AND “when my husband made his, he took off 1/4″ and it fit perfectly, so we recommend it to everyone else”. So, now, I am not only asking questions of this company person, but I am being privy to her relationship with her apparently chastised husband. If this was the 1970′s, I’d tell you “I can dig it”.

My new device will be here in 3-4 weeks and we can’t wait. I also wanted to share an event that happened with me and my sizing rings a few weeks ago. I tried on a ring that fit nicely around my penis and scrotum. I took it off, and tried on the smaller one. It was a very tight fit. I squished and squeezed and I got in. I even passed the holy “one finger” test. And then, it was time to get out. I got my penis out and I was stuck. I could not get my testicles out of that ring for anything. For 30 minutes I tried and tried and I made no progress. I even considered taking a hammer to the plastic ring (I didn’t go that far, but I thought about it). Somehow, one testicle went through, then then the second one popped through. We ordered the size larger than that one!

If you have been reading my posts you must remember me mentioning Lockeduplove.net. I have an update about the broken pin on my birdlocked. John send me a warranty replacement. The customer service that this company provides is mind-blowing. They are honest and the customer is the focus all the time! Please consider buying from them!

Lastly, tonight is Halloween. The night of little kids on the hunt for sugar and adults behaving like idiots. Its a night of costumes and pretending. I find that much of my life before coming out has parallel story lines to halloween (walk this way, wear these clothes etc…) and now that I am out to almost everyone, chastity has taken over and the costumes and pretending are back. Chastity seems to be the ongoing adage of halloween, its “trick or treat”

Tomorrow starts November. Good night everyone (thanks for reading)

Things are ok with me these days!

Day 9

Last night my KH asked me how work was when I arrived at home. I said that it was ok. He remarked that I have had a moderately long stretch of ok days and wondered if where I work had just gotten quieter. Soon after, we both recognized a correlation between being cum-blocked and my good mood when getting home from work. I work in a science / healthcare field but I am by no means a scientist. What I am proposing here applies to me and me along, I dare not generalize for the whole population. I am speculating that with being locked up for extended periods of time, my testosterone levels and my serotonin levels are adjusting inversely (testosterone going up, serotonin going down) and as such, my mood is much better. I find that I am much more tolerant of things that would drive me crazy beforehand.

Case in point, my KH and I have one of those temper mattresses. We purchased it after years of me waking up from him getting into and out of bed. It was driving me mad. The bed is great, but I am getting up all the time now because of other reasons (adjusting to chastity in a new device, new hours at work, clicking heating system etc). He is still waking me up once in a while, but now I just go back to sleep. I was never able to do that before.

We are getting closer to our order date for my jailbird and measurements are in process. I recognize that this is a big step forward for us and while I see it as an investment, I wasn’t entirely sure how my KH saw it. On discussion, he said “you are much easier to deal with, our sex life is fantastic now, I plan on doing this forever with you”. Well, mystery solved for me.

Right now, my Birdlocked is being held together with a zip tie (a recommendation from one of my readers! thank you!). I have been in contact with Lockeduplove.net and as predicted, John is being a true advocate for me on this one. I’ll post details of the whole story once the zip ties are gone. I have no connection to the company other than being a customer. If you are planning on purchasing anything that they sell, buy it from them! Their prices are great and their customer service is fantastic in general (and spectacular when compared to other vendors in the adult toy / bsdm / chastity category).

On a final note, I took a tangent against underwear the other day. I still maintain that I hate it. I decided to rejoin the free-ballers union and spent that day with nothing between me and the pants. It was fantastic! There was no squashing, no pain, no irritation and no sweat buildup. And, when a woman at the post office spent too much time looking at my crotch, I put my hand in my pocket and asked if she got a good enough view! She smiled

Thanks for reading and have a great day!

 

Code Gray, Code Gray!

The love affair with the birdlocked device might have come to a grinding halt last night. I woke up a little past midnight and found the lock on the mattress next to me. It looks like the plastic post that holds everything together snapped on both sides of the lock and in a manor of speaking, set me free. I am sad about this development.

I did a number of things to make this better. I emailed the company we purchased the device from to see if this is a known issue and if not, to see how much a replacement post costs. Lockeduplove.net has been amazing before in regards to customer service, and I expect that this time will be no different. I told my hubby. He wasn’t pleased but he wasn’t angry. His response “work on fixing it, and NO CUMMING”. Message received LOL. And lastly, I found the broken off piece this morning on the floor (thats good luck!). I got out my loctite glue (no longer reserved for fixing my cb-curve apparently) and put humpty dumpty back together again. Its not perfect, and it probably won’t stay in the condition its in right now, but its something and its keeping me out of the curve that is sitting in my underwear drawer mocking me.

UPDATE: The loctite didn’t hold, the “rivet” is likely unfixable. Ugh

In exploring this situation in my mind, I have a few comments to share. The big picture issue is kind of messed up but so indicative of chastity in the first place. We go to great lenths to make sure our orgasms are controlled, we spend lots of money and in the end, we are crazy gluing the pieces together after doing something ridiculous (you know, like rolling over in bed!). A part that cost Birdlocked under 50 cents to manufacture should have been made from brass (would cost about a dollar) and would make this device far more durable, broke! And if it had not been for my resourcefulness, it would have made the whole device and my chastity null and void.

Additionally, it looks like I really did get lucky tonight. I have spent most of my life not wearing underwear. It has been a problem since puberty and I never really dealt with it. It was only since starting chastity that I felt I needed to wear some that I began this silly search for anything that I could fit in and that would be comfortable. In the last few weeks, the boxer briefs that I was feeling good about started to feel bad and I stopped putting them on in the morning. I know I will take some feedback for this comment, but I really feel that a real man doesn’t wear underwear. Men use it as an excuse to avoid cleanliness, for “modesty” even though they make no attempt to be modest and most of all, for laziness. It has become a social convention, but ask yourself why do YOU wear underwear. Do what you like, but I’m guessing you fit into one of the above categories.  I mention all of this because I found the lock in the bed! If I had been walking around I might never have found that lock. Worse, someone else might have found it and asked me about it. The potential embarrassment is certainly there on this issue.

We are less than 1 month away from ordering a steel device. In the mean time, I will be wearing underwear, not because I want to but because its a small price to pay until I am in steel. In a short time I will probably never wear it again.

Well, thats how my day started out LOL. I hope yours get off to a better start than mine. Thanks for reading!

Jesse Owens never had a run like that!

Day 5.

Its been a few days, not much has happened. Well, one thing happened. I got unlocked and was allowed to cum. My KH didn’t lock me back up for a few days and I took that to mean that he had lost interest in the whole chastity part of our lives. I did what any red blooded American man would do. I got off! A lot! (eight times on one day then five more times on the next day). I’d have gone for my usual eight but my KH asked me outright if I had been behaving while I was unlocked. Uh oh. I told the truth. He was not too pleased with me. Now, I am locked up again and I couldn’t even venture a guess regarding when I will be allowed to cum again. Lesson to those with loving key holders, you aren’t free until you have both keys and verbal confirmation that you won’t be locked up again!

Back to today: I decided to go for a run this morning. Its 2011, not 1903 so I run in the modern way. I drive to the gym, activate the sensor in my shoe, link that to the receiver in my phone and activate the heart monitor I wear around my chest.  The heart monitor is linked to the treadmill and now I know everything about my body while I am running..

Things turned bad, fast.

I got to the gym (victory #1) and started walking from the car. I looked down and saw that the birdlocked in my pants was readily visible. I didn’t care. I have had a life long issue with my penis being visible through workout pants, so if it floats your boat, put on a life vest and grab your binoculars and some lube.

I left the locker room and headed towards the gym area. Thats when I heard it “walk around to activate your sensor”. The phone found my sensor a few minutes ago at home.. ok, so I walked around.. I took the shoe off and reset the sensor.. I reset the phone.. fuck it, i’ll live without it today. I got on the treadmill and linked up the heart sensor (my heart rate is HOW HIGH?!.. ok, will come back.. three times a week.. calm down!)

Just run!

4.5 miles per hour, 3% incline.. things are going well. I have a light misty sweat forming and now that I am not in curve, I don’t hear lock’s banging noises! Two miles into my run it begins. The rubbing and pain on the right hand side of the birdlocked against my scrotum.I finished mile three then stopped the workout.

I took at look at a fellow locked guys blog this week and read all about a flaw with the device we are planning on getting in the next few months. The device is the JailBird and the problem is that they rotate. It was after my workout that I noticed that my birdlocked ALSO rotates! Its not the device from what I can tell, its the fact that the two testicles on the average male are not identical. In fact, there is always a bigger one that hangs a bit lower. In my case, right is lower and my birdlocked turns a little to the right. This is NOT a huge deal, but it sure put an end to today’s workout pretty quickly. Next time I will lube better before heading out.

 

Thanks for reading! I hope you have a nice day!

Its a new day

Day 6

Today started off as the ultimate chastity day for me. I woke up to a restrained attempt at an erection and two tender trapped testicles pulled in tightly to my body. Minimal leaking, no pain and no running to the bathroom to shuffle skin or equipment around. It was really a “savor the moment” kind of wakeup that I have never experienced before. My reservations about the quality or efficacy of the Birdlocked are quickly fading away. In fact, last night I only got up once! And I believe it was just to urinate, not to urinate for the sake of getting rid of an erection.

I wish I could lounge around for an hour or two and enjoy the bliss of pain free cumblocking but my kh and I are visiting friends today and they live far away. Anyone who has ever had the wrong sized chastity device on for a car ride knows all too well the hell that one can experience. Today is the maiden friend voyage of me in the birdlocked and I am hopeful it will be less painful than a similar trip we took a few months ago (when I was locked in the dreaded and poorly constructed cb-curve).

I read a post recently where another chastised man talked about his frustrations with underwear (something that you should all already know I have been dealing with). His ideas were similar to mine, but I learned a new angle on the issue. He talked about pants being the problem too. I am VERY tall and VERY thin. So much so that in most cases, I can’t buy clothes “off the rack”. They are either custom cut or very tailored once purchased. I took his post to heart and got some new pants made. The old old ones were fine when I am unlocked, but let’s be honest, with a steel device looming in my future, what are the real chances that I will ever be unlocked again? (slim to none). The new pants have more room in the crotch area (1/2 inch) so they will lay a little closer to the ground when I am standing. This should help with any binding caused by clothing.

We arrived btw and there was no chastity related pain to speak of. Time to visit!

Thanks for reading! (no poll today – cant set one up from the iPhone). Hope you have a great day

Today I am a man

My body is changing LOL. My voice isn’t cracking and my hair isn’t falling out (my balls are certainly hanging lower though!) but there are changes happening. I am in my 30s and starting this month I have noticed that I need to shave my face every day or I get stubble. I had been able to shave every other day and remain “baby’s butt smooth”, that’s apparently over for me. This might be attributed to my body finally getting over puberty or as I suspect, a surge in testosterone coursing through my body because it’s no longer being evacuated eight times per day. The proof is somewhat evident, though I’m not running to a lab to find out if I’m correct.

So to mark the occasion for a 20 year late bar mitzvah or what ever the non jews do.. you can plant a tree in Israel or send me cash via paypal (cutbyforce@yahoo.com) LOL. Your gifts will help keep me a very little man (and will be get me in metal faster). Shalom!

I am on day 5 today. Last night we started playing with the rude boy prostate device. I think we did something wrong though. The videos we watched show people that look like me and they are dripping all over the place once the rude boy starts up. I felt like I needed to pee really badly and then one huge, thick, hunk of precum came dribbling out. That was it! This thing was massive by the way.

On the underwear front, I am wearing boxer briefs today, something I have never done before. I noticed a few things. For one, post milking last night, I am not leaking today… Interesting right? Also, these are really comfortable! How have I never tried these before?!

I hope you have a great day and thanks for reading!

The best of times preceded the worst of times

Day 15 ended with the release of my troops. I won’t bore you with the details (teaser!) but suffice it to say that the next time Mt. Vesuvius, the famed volcano in Naples goes off, people will compare it to ME! LOL Incidentialy, if anyone knows of a painter that specializes in covering up blemishes on ceilings, please forward me his information. (yes, it did happen!) Records are made to be broken, and when my 10 day one was shattered, my prostate took the time to show off!

Its been a few days since I posted last and I want to thank my readers for their participation in my polls and of course the feedback. Its nice to write, its even nicer to be read!

Work has been kicking my ass this week. Since I had gotten off, I have noticed that my mood has been off. I have been snappy and a little down. There is a bunch of research available indicating that men go through a neurochemical cycle post orgasm that can take two full weeks to reset to normal. Based on the way I felt for the last few days, I think longer lockups are here to stay (hopefully). I do realize that once we get past day 10, I will be singing a while new tune! I have gotten some requests for links to articles about the dopamine / testosterone cycle. I am working on that (getting permissions) and will post as soon as I have validated information. If I were the only case study, I’d buy a billboard in Times Square today.

I posted a poll a while ago about underwear while in chastity (who can spot the fetish?). I have made some progress to report. I ordered a bunch of new undershirts (I’m a wife beater shirt kind of guy… always have been btw). They are made by BVD and I think they are the most comfortable and attractive looking. I got to thinking that if I like this companies undershirts, why not try the underwear? So, I bought a bunch of briefs and gave them a try. SUCCESS! Three days in BVD briefs and my search might be over. I LOVE the look of Papi brazilian briefs, but in chastity they aren’t comfortable. That, and the idea that while in chastity, I um.. don’t need the added room of a pouch up front as much as before).. the briefs are working well!

I bought my KH a suggestive present the other day. It is a Rude Boy prostate stimulator (kind of like an expensive dildo that vibrates on the prostate for milking purposes). The theory is that without orgasm, the dopamine / testosterone cycle won’t happen (but the prostate can expel fluids making things a bit more comfortable in the scrotum). I have never been successfully milked, and now that we are venturing into longer cumlock periods, it might be beneficial to give it a new millennium try.

Its Day 3 for those that are keeping track. I hope you a great day! Im going to stay home and try to figure out what makes the new iPhone software so wonderful, it just finished installing.

Keep your hands where we can see them!