All cast members to the front of the stage!
I have some notes that I would like to share. Think of these as updates on my locked life. For starters, Yes, I was re-locked yesterday in my jailbird. I went to bed thinking that the whole “hellish sleeping” issue while locked was still behind me. I was wrong! I can’t take my own device off (we have the high security key/screw and there is nothing in my toolbox that even comes close to that shape), so i was up re-lubing, peeing, icing every 90 minutes. I was not in any pain at all, this was sexual urges at their most primal level.
When the sun finally showed up and bathed my body with its twenty degree “warmth”,I got out of bed, got dressed and went to the gym. This would be the first time I am working out this year while locked. I have gained a bit of weight over the holiday season and the optional gym visits are fitting into the mandatory column. I have never been to the gym while locked in the jailbird and given my experiences with the cb-products, I was concerned about pain and visibility.
The shorts have changed (now in Under Armour.. much thinner than the Nike ones I love) and the underwear changed too. Today was boxer briefs. This weight gain is killing me. I trudged through the masses and finally got to a treadmill of my own. The run began without incident. Well, without incident for me LOL. I have one of those polar heart monitor chest bands that controls the treadmill based on my heart rate. I changed the battery the other day and apparently that made the signal stronger, so much so that the two people next to me had my heart rate on their screens. Sorry fellow exercisers, no harm intended. I DID lube up, heavily before this run. About 20 minutes into the run, the burning began. Ugh. I casually reached down and adjusted the scrotal skin. The burning went away. It didn’t return until I was in the locker room getting changed. All in all, not too bad! A different underwear choice will likely help that situation.
The jailbird continues to impress us with its durability and craftsmanship. The “head” of the device was noticeable if you knew what to look for, but I doubt anyone bothered looking, no one said anything and I didn’t notice any locked eyes (far different experience from the last devices I wore!).
If you are in the north east USA, stay warm today! Thanks for reading.
Here I go again…
So, last week I got released. A series of unfortunate events at work have led me and my kh/hubby to be on almost isolation orders from my doctor. Bottom line, its fly solo, or don’t fly at all for the next few months. Ugh…
The night I was freed was nice. I had hit my all time record (21 days) and the payoff was fantastic. As always, I asked for some time off. My KH gave me a few days off and then started asking when I would be locked up again. I kept putting it off because I was enjoying the time off, but he was asking for a reason. What he noticed immediately and I noticed a few days later was that my mood had changed. My complaining about my colleagues at work had started up again (they were driving me crazy). Additionally, unprompted, I started having a bad attitude towards other people in my life. Most people have no idea how I feel about them, but I was getting angry about things that happened months and years ago. The only change was the chastity release..
This morning, I accepted my place in this world and got locked up again. Its a success and a defeat all in one. The success is that I am reasonably sure that there is a connection between my freedom of sexual expression and my poor moods. Its a failure in that I could not contain myself in a way that would be conducive to being free.
At the end of the day I am thankful for having a device that fits me properly, a hubby that loves me, and a way to make both myself and my hubby feel better. I don’t think that many of the BSDM masters out there would understand our viewpoints in regards to chastity, nor would most understand my hypothesis of the testosterone cycle in regards to psyche, but it works for us.
Its becoming clear that my time in chastity is going to be a life in chastity.
As a final note to my readers, I noticed that one of my fellow chastity bloggers has offered his readers the opportunity to ask him questions. I would like to extend this to my readers as well. All questions will be answered, so ask away!
A Story for us, the locked
This story first appeared on the Locked & Denied blog. I am always looking for semi fictitious stories to read and share with you guys. Although, I take no credit at all for writing this, I think its a well crafted piece worthy of your perusal.
So, on our first anniversary, he says “We’re gonna do something real special today” “Oh?” He hands me a pair of short shorts and flipflops. “Put these on.” and I do. “C’mon.” He heads toward the door, opens it, expecting me to follow him.
I hesitate because I am no longer fit and trim and young – HE is – but not I; and walking out of the house to the car in under-sized shorts and my stainless steel collar in broad daylight is now freaking me out. “HEY! COME ON!” I steel my myself and dash out to the car as quickly as I can.
When we pull out of the driveway he tells me to take my shorts off and I sit there with only my collar and Jail Bird on. A few minutes later, he pulls into a fast food drive up. I start to pull my shorts on … “No. Keep’em off.” He orders a small soda and pulls to the window. An emo boy leans out to hand him the soda but he “fumbles” with his wallet, letting the emo boy stare at me while I blush from head to toe.
We pull away and drive to a place just outside of town … giant metal sculptures litter the property and we pull up next to this large barn-like structure. We can hear banging from inside. “Get out.” I look at my lover/owner with a fearful look on my face. “Well, you should probably wear the flipflops. Might be metal chips on the floor.”
Trembling with fear and trepidation I get out of the car, looking around to see if anyone can see me. I follow my lover to the bard and I see a hot stud of a man tapping a hammer on some metallic object. “Hey Jack!” He looks up and smiles, staring directly at me. He’s so hot and studly I whither, wishing I looked half as hot. “So this is your boyfriend, huh?” “Yep. Anniversary today.” “uh-huh” He ogles me. Then waves me to come closer.
He reaches down to my cage grabs it hard and leans down for a closer look. “Hmmmm” Then he takes a closer look at my collar. “Yeah. I can help you out.” “Good.”
He walks to a table and removes all the stuff from it, slaps his hand on its surface, “Get up on this and lay down.” I do, staring at my lover who’s got one of those “shit eatin’ grins” ripping across his face. jack lays a weighty blanket across my lower half and pulls my cocklet through a hole. He smears some vaseline all over my skin and device except where the lock and pin are. Then he crams the corner of a towel under that lock and pin area. “Thank God yer cock isn’t any bigger.” he mumbles.
He pulls his goggles down over his eyes, clips something with a cable to my cage and lifts what looks like some kind of gun, “Don’t look for a sec, eh?” I lay my head down and look at the ceiling when I hear this electric zapzap and the room flashes in bright white light. “Done.” He lifts his goggles to his forehead and smiles, rubbing at my device, I sit up a bit to see.
He’s welded the lock and pin! He’s also welded my pa to the device. I moan. I’ll never get out of this now.
He pulls the blanket away, uses a paper towel to clean up some of the vaseline, then take the blanket and starts wedging it up between my neck and the collar. Before I know it … zapzap/flashflash … and he’s welded the collar closed, the lock now just a decoration.
My lover comes up then, smiling like a proud poppa. “Nice!” He kisses me deeply and my cock stirs, “Happy Anniversary, baby.” He’s still got that grin, so I know something’s up. He steps back, “Now pay the man.” He turns and struts out of the workshop. I hear the car door slam. I look at Jack and mumble, “Well … uh … I … uh … kinda didn’t bring my wallet.” “S’okay.” and points to the floor.
I hop off the table and kneel. “Well?” he says. I reach for the zipper knowing my lover planned this whole thing for me and my cock fills my cage and bulges out between the bars. I pull out Jack’s cock and it practically launches itself into my mouth. I take as much of it as I can and I still have a hand’s width to hold onto. He grabs my head and face rapes me hard.
After a lifetime, he lifts me up, pushes me face first onto the bench, and shoves two fingers of vaseline into my hole, dispassionately twisting and spreading it open. All I can do is gasp and moan. Moments later I feel that tree branch of a cock slide right into my hole and he goes all the way to the root. I’m seeing stars.
He starts fucking me. A man on a mission. My cock is leaking like its never done before. My hole is vibrating in pleasure. My prostate is under assault. In another few moments I can feel waves of an anal orgasm start to rise up. Jack starts getting aggressive; calling me “bitch” and “whore” – which turns me on more. Then he grabs my now welded on collar and pulls it back, “Fucking going to breed yer ass bitch!” He slams his cock harder, faster, grunting … I know he’s shooting his load inside me and suddenly I’m cumming too … for the first time in nearly a year.
When he’s fully spent, he lays on top of me briefly. His cock shrinks and slide out of me. I squeeze, not wanting to lose his load. “Ok bitch. Yer boyfriend’s waiting on ya.” I push myself off the bench, slip my feet into my flipflops and waddle out the barn to the car.
I get in the car and my lover is sitting behind the stearing wheel, with that damn grin, pants around his ankles and his hand wrapped around his hard cock, “Aren’t you gonna thank me for your anniversary gift?” I dive onto his cock and suck him like I’ve never sucked him before.
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Happy New Year
To my dedicated readers, thank you for joining me on my journey through the world of chastity over the last few months. It’s been a pleasure to share the events of my locked life with you and an honor to get the feedback that you have offered to me in this process.
I wish those of you that are locked like me tonight, a fulfilling new year in which ever ways you and your keyholders choose to pursue. I further wish the keyholders a happy new year as well and a thank you for the service you provide to those of us who are locked. Lastly, I wish courage and strength to those of my readers that have been thinking about the chastity lifestyle but haven’t had the courage to make it happen.
It’s been a great year for me and my keyholder/hubby and I can tell you based on a conversation today that this year will be another step forward for us in all aspects of our lives together. We are away for the holiday and I packed lube. He asked if I thought there was a chance I would be let out (laughing). I said it was to lubricate my device. He said, well, I guess it will get used on this trip then.
Have a wonderful new year!
-Newbie
On matters of security, clearances will be needed
Its been an interesting couple of days over here. Most notably, today marks fourteen days of cum locked in my body. My kh has ordered a prostate massaging tool and tonight he ordered the upgrade kit for my jailbird. The kit will apparently have the maximum security screw lock, as opposed to the medium security screw lock that is currently tormenting me (its also a hex screw with the pin in the middle).
A few days ago a package came from mature metal, in it was a padlock. My kh had me sit on my knees on the workbench (naked of course). He took the medium security screw out of the device but he made sure to hold the ring and cage together. My hopes of voiding my testicles and prostate were quickly dashed when he tried to install the padlock where the screw was. It didn’t fit. The screw was quickly put back in place and I was told to get dressed.
To be 100% honest, I have no clue why all of a sudden he is adjusting the security of my chastity cage. I have always had an emergency key and I have only used it once when the lube I was using failed and I was chafing / bleeding at work. I have never cum without permission, ever!
I guess he and the people at mature metal exchanged a few emails and all of a sudden I was back on the workbench, back on my knees, naked again. This time, I was not thrilled with what was going on. My KH had a power drill in his hands. He told me to close my eyes. I was petrified, but knew better than to question a man with a drill. So, I closed my eyes. I felt my chastity device being unlocked and loosened and then the drill started. My KH explained that the manufacturer was supposed to make the screw hole a particular diameter so it could accommodate a lock, but they didn’t. He was widening the hole in the device while I was still in it!
The good news is that he was careful and it looks like he did a nice job. He installed a padlock and told me to get dressed. I did so and the lock was very visible. He changed it back to the medium security screw and told me the high security setup would be here in a few days.
Sorry for the tangent: Last night we had some stay over guests and I was VERY hopeful that my KH would have some compassion and let me drain. I asked him if I might be able to cum. His answer was an emphatic “No”. He pulled my shorts and jock down and looked at my cage. His comment was “wow, that doesn’t look very comfortable”. He then re-covered me and went to sleep. This morning when we woke up he asked how long it had been. I said it had been 14 days. He started to smile and said something like ‘you sound like a child.. it has been 14 days, 3 hours, 12 minutes, 21 seconds’.. I was hurt but I knew that he didn’t mean it as I was hearing it.
If you have been reading my posts so far (thank you!), you might know that aside from being a sub, I am also the top in my relationship. I had hoped that tonight I would get some relief (hey, THAT should have been the title of this post! God bless the Rolling Stones!) and I was told over dinner that my kh had stomach issues. That, my friends is code for “the cum stays where it is”.
Its going to be a long night. Thanks for reading. I hope to have a much more positive outlook next time!
Sometimes life just gets in the way
Today I am meeting my new physician. I’m feeling fine but it’s time for a change in my healthcare. I have been locked in my jailbird with no pain for eight days for those who are wondering.
As I was getting dressed this morning, I asked my kh if I should take the cage off before going to the doctor. His answer was yes, but I am not to touch and definitely not to masterbate. I am
Also to get relocked as soon as tr appointment is over.
The biggest thrill came next. My kh told me that he has been masterbating while thinking of me locked and what we do when I am unlocked. For more than one obvious reason, there is a outline of a penis showing through my pants and a wet spot at the tip.
I am going to behave and I hope this doctor visit goes well. Thanks for reading!
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Its time for a hardware review!
When we got home from a weekend away (yesterday), there was another box from Texas, the home of Mature Metal. Inside the box was the same chastity cage I had mailed back but there was a new base ring (larger size) and a the spacing rod had been adjusted to accommodate my physical build. The last time a box like this arrived at our home, I had high hopes that this would be it! It was close.. but not in the realm of perfect.
This time, things started off the same way. Into the shower, soap up, get the base ring on etc. I immediately noticed a difference! For starters, my testicles slid in this time (they popped in last time). The ring and cage connected with little issue, but this time I was able to get a finger in the ring up to the finger’s first joint. This time, I can adjust my scrotum too.
I put it on before noon yesterday and it hasn’t come off yet (the other had been off three times by now). The good parts remained the same by the way. I am still able to stand to urinate, the medium security lock screw is far less noticeable than any padlock and the build is strong on this device. The day flew by yesterday and there was no pain or pinching. We were off to a good start, but the true test would be how well I slept last night.
A little background is necessary. When I was wearing the cb-6000 and cb-curve they kept breaking, pinching, hurting, cutting me etc. I was up every two hours with those devices RUNNING to the bathroom in an attempt to stop the “oh my god I think my balls are getting ripped off my body” sensation. The Birdlocked was better, but there was a HIGH demand for lube (my bathroom floor resembled a slip and slide toy). Enter the Jailbird…
A large factor for me and my KH in regards to chastity is “how noticeable is it”? I think by now you know that we are both moderately conservative dressed guys living in the suburbs and blending in. The noticeability factor is always a concern for both of us. Noticeability ratings: CB-6000 – 75%, CB-Curve – 70, Birdlocked – 75, Jailbird- 95%.
The CB-6000 is super small (I never tried the 6000s model.. that wouldn’t work on me). It was so small in fact that it ranked very high on ability to hide it. It hurt me and made me bleed, but unless you saw blood dripping down my pants, you probably saw little else! It did loose points because of the chunky base ring and the ubiquitous padlock.
The CB-Curve had the same issues of the chunky base ring and the padlock but its a little longer and a little wider. “Built for a bigger man”?!.. I don’t think so! What the curve did for me was to keep my penis in a compressed size but in a very weird position. When I wear underwear, I used to wear boxers or boxer briefs. This way, I could um, rest on my leg. The CB-Curve forced the crotch of the underwear to pull down because it would not aim down a leg and stay pseudo comfortable. Its a bad design and frankly adding more material does not make it more accommodating for those that need it.
The Birdlocked lost some points because of the base ring. That thing is HUGE. It moved my testicles all the way forward making a “bulge” into a “BULGE!” Points were also lost for the padlock btw.
By now, you might be wondering why the Jailbird only got 95%. The only device that is made today that would get 100% on this issue is the steelworxx models with the built in lock. Simply put, you can not see that extra little bump when you are looking at a chastised clothed man. On the Jailbird, there is a very little steel post that sticks up a very little bit. Wear dark pants and NO ONE will ever notice it. In fact, wear anything other than briefs and no one will notice it. But, put on boxer briefs or regular briefs and it will be there. It a minor issue for such a great device.
Last night I slept with minimal interruption. In fact, I got up (atypically for me) to urinate once. I did wake up a few times to adjust the ring and my scrotum skin but there wasn’t pain! There was a feeling that something was there and my psyche wanted to explore. So while the ideal device would never have me get up to address it, this device gets a solid 95% on that scale. I suppose given my expectations, the ideal device would be weightless and invisible, but hey, its not impossible! (hint: the cb-6000 got a 10%, the cb-curve got a 10% and the birdlocked got a 50%).
One last point to address before I go. The Jailbird is EXCELLENT in regards to hygiene. It gets 100% grading from me. I showered last night and I got clean! No smell, no built up pre-cum mixed with urine and no yellowing plastic. I didn’t need to use q-tips to clean inside or the 80cc syringe I keep on the shower to squirt soapy water inside the cages of my other devices. The cage on the jailbird is far more open than any of my other devices, but don’t misread that as “less secure”. I have gotten off while wearing the cb-curve (PAINFUL but possible).. its not going to happen in the jailbird. Just for your own knowledge: cleanliness ratings” CB-6000 – ZERO PERCENT, CB-Curve- 40%, Birdlocked 40%.
The odd part is that I don’t think anyone should start with the jailbird as an initial device even after reading my opinions above. I think that having gone through it all in the usual devices taught me a valuable plethora of lessons regarding realistic chastity and it enabled us (over a few years) to determine what is important to me and my KH.
I hope you have a great day, thanks for reading.
Houston, We’ve got a problem…
To my readers, mea culpa for my e-absence. Over the last few weeks I received a new chastity device and then sadly had to send it back for resizing. Its a trap that I keep falling into. I imagine myself as a man with an average sized penis (its not average) but when I order accordingly, the devices are always too small. For this reason, I work with amazing dealers and craftsmen when ordering devices. You pay a little more, but in the end, after some adjustments, you get device that fits. So, todays special thank you goes out toe Mature Metal for the resizing they did for me.
During my time off from chastity, something happened at work that kind of spooked me. I was paged to go to the MRI department “stat”. I had to ask someone where that was because in five years at my hospital, I have never been in the MRI room. If you have ever had an MRI, you might know that metal is absolutely forbidden anywhere near that machine. The reason is that the machine is basically a humongous magnet and all metal will be drawn right to it. I got to the department, emptied my pockets, took off my badge and for good measure took off my stethoscope and glasses. The good news is that the reason I was paged was ridiculous (no cause for alarm, someone over-reacted) and I was NOT locked in chastity that day!
I got to thinking about the benefits and detriments to chastity. I love how I feel emotionally after ten days of cum denial. I love the way the only orgasm at the end of 15 days just blows my mind. I love how well my relationship with my kh blooms and blossoms while he keeps me locked. But, like everyone else I hate certain things about chastity.
You have probably read about my endless underwear search to accommodate my chastity. I hate that! I hate the pain that poorly made devices can cause. I hate the lube issue and I hate having to hide what I am doing.
The whole MRI issue brought about a new worry for me and my KH. I DO carry an emergency key and it seems like I have just found out why I do that! The problem is that even if I were to take the device off in such an emergency, where the hell would I put it?! I can’t leave it on reception desk with my keys, thats for sure!
I will be posting a review of the jailbird that I am wearing tonight, but thats going to have to wait a few days. There are a number of pass/fail tests that my devices go through. The issue of “can I sleep through the night in this thing” is right up there towards the top of the importance list. If I sleep through the night, you will see some generous reviews here tomorrow.
For now, I welcome you back to my blog and thank you again for reading. I hope you have a great night.
Here’s to new beginnings
Im back, and this time I am locked in my new jailbird by mature metal.
I got home from work yesterday only to find my kh waiting for me. Since this almost never happens, I knew something was up. He welcomed me home and presented me with a priority mail box from Texas. I knew what was in the box, but I didn’t think my time off was going to end for another week. In the box was the jailbird we ordered only 17 days earlier. My freedom ended now.
I was happy but not entirely enthusiastic at the beginning and he noticed. He had me strip and on the jailbird went. The first thing I noticed was how secure the fit was. We had ordered to sizing rings and followed the directions. The end result is a device that is so fitted to me that pullout is never going to happen.
I went about showering and my usual activities and then it was time for bed. Nighttime is one of two particular times where chastity roars its horrid head and drives me crazy (the other is getting into and out of the car). I don’t know what I was thinking but I never lubricated before bed. In fact, I only lubricated 24 hours later. I woke up twice in pain (skin pulls). Lesson to those coming over to steel devices.. YOU NEED TO USE LUBE!
On the second area (the car), the device is perfect! No pain and no pulling.
On the cleanliness front, the device is EVERYTHING I had been looking for! Soap, water and you are done! No squeeze bottles, no q-tips, no trapped moisture. I am VERY pleased with this angle.
Lastly, we come to build quality (this was an investment after all). The cage build is A++, the ring build gets a solid B-. I am taking off a significant amount because my custom handmade device had a ring that had a very sharp point on it. There is no acceptable reason that this should have ever left the workbench at mature metal. I took some sandpaper to it and the problem is gone, the fact is that it was shipped that way. The quality control is lacking and that should never have happened.
After a day of wearing it with no lube (well, no good lube, I figured this out at work and hospital grade surge-lube is kind of horrible), I am now locked and lubed (Pjur). The skin on my scrotum is a bit sore but not broken. I hope the lube and some rest will get me back to tender free status asap. Lets hope tonights rest is uninterrupted because of chastity.
Thanks for reading! I hope your thanksgiving plans are coming along nicely!
We are on a break!
I have been unlocked for a few weeks in anticipation of my new device being delivered. The debauchery has been astounding. I’ll leave you to your imagination on what has transpired, but suffice it to say that when the jailbird gets here, my body will welcome the rest at least for a little while! LOL.
I have started to experience the other side of the testosterone surge (aka testosterone shortage). Now that I have some freedoms, I find that at times of rest, I am more anxious and more easily agitated than during similar times while I had been in chastity. My pulse is higher, I am more tired at the end of the day and I have been grouchy too. I have been quite a handful LOL.
The good news is that we know what the antidote is and its being constructed now.
Thanks for reading and following these posts. Once the new device arrives, I’ll update and pickup where I left off.
